This is it!
So here is the latest update on my journey. It has been a surreal few weeks since my diagnosis, sometimes it has been hard to believe and digest because most of the time I generally feel OK, although I have noticed that my voice is becoming more hoarse again and I am also having a little trouble with eating certain food types. However, this sense of surrealism was quashed within the space of a few minutes yesterday when I was telephoned with the time and date of my operation to remove my cancer.
I like to think that I have prepared myself for what is coming; I have watched numerous videos, read pages and pages of literature, visited and bookmarked many websites and generally tried to educate myself and the rest of the family as to what we can expect in the days, months and hopefully years that will follow as a 'laryngectomee'. We have registered with various agencies to ensure that we get all necessary materials I might need and have tried to remain positive and strong throughout.
The phone call drove home exactly what we were going to face and although it wasn't a shock to get the call, in fact I have been kind of hoping for it since I learnt I was undergoing the procedure, it was a sobering thought that this was 'it'.We have been given a date when my life will change quite drastically. I will have to learn how to eat and speak in a different way to that which I have done for the past 52 years. There are lots of things I will be unable to do, for instance I won't be able to lift heavy objects and I thought about this when I got my bicycle out. Will I still be able to lift the cycle to put on the roof rack of the car? I have no idea. It's not just the physical side either, there is the psychological effect, I'm almost certain to have good and bad days. Lots of things like this are going through my mind and I won't have an answer to them until I can get back on my feet and get back to being my old (but new) self. I will still be me, just with a few nasty cells eradicated and with a bit of cartilage and tissue removed. I'll still talk, perhaps not as loudly and not as fluently as before but I will still be the same person. The challenge before me might seem formidable to begin with but it is not insurmountable, it is something I will get used to as will those around me and after a couple of months it will be the norm.
Anyway the date for my diary is 0700 hrs on the 22 September 2016
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